Prince Update ~ 8 February 2014: “Step up into love”
After our daily r-i-d-e, I spent the rest of the day on the couch watching movies and napping with the kids.
I was chatting with a friend while w-a-l-k-ing Celt and heard that today’s gift from Prince was going to be something about “Love”.
One of the movies which was on today is “Step Up”. It’s a fun dance/music movie with many underlying messages. Channing Tatum, who is yummy to look at, says this towards the end of the movie: “I do realize how important this is. That’s exactly why I’m here. You said if I want something, I gotta fight for it. Right? That’s what I’m doing. I’m fighting for something real for the first time in my life.”
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the concept of “love”. I’ve heard before that “love is an action word”. Hearing and saying the words are lovely. A twist on the old saying, “faith without works is dead” applies, for me, to the concept of love.
I’m reading a book I’ve had since the 80s to a friend of mine. “The Game of Life and How to Play It” by Florence Scovel Shinn was published in 1925; almost ninety years ago. It’s one of the most powerful books I’ve ever read. Non-coincidentally, today’s chapter I was reading is on “Love”; I realized this after today’s gift came to me.
The author says, “Real love is selfless and free from fear. It pours itself out upon the object of its affection, without demanding any return. Its joy is in the joy of giving. Love is God in manifestation, and the strongest magnetic force in the universe. Pure, unselfish love is drawing to itself its own, it does not need to seek or demand.”
This time with Prince has given me an opportunity to really explore the concept of love. One of the readers of this page has been messaging me and shared this link recently and specifically pointed out the section on “seeking comfort”. Then the person typed this: “Prince trusts you with his life.”
Seeing that brought tears to my eyes and an ache in my heart as it’s true, and I had never seen that gift until pointed out to me. He’s lying in the dog bed next to me, in bed. Occasionally he looks over, or nudges my hand if it gets close enough, to remind me to finish soon so we can enjoy our remaining time together.
Prince encourages me to keep my heart open, to let love in, not to close down due to fear. He’s given me an opportunity to do so with friends as well, as I stay open to support around losing my beloved boy Prince.
Prince has let me care for him, and learn what caring for someone really means. It’s doesn’t mean doing everything for that being, sometimes it means letting them find their own way and just being willing to be there when they stumble and ask for your support, in a way that works for that being.
Prince has shown me how when I “love big”, I don’t have to shut down out of fear; that is merely a choice and one I’m not wanting to make anymore in life. Prince is giving me the opportunity to really feel and believe that I am loveable and deserving of being loved.
It’s not about how I look or don’t, or what I have or don’t although favorite treats do help … LOL. It’s not about how I score, or how quickly I do something. It’s about being true to myself, and being true to other living beings and letting them make their own choices about their lives.
Currently, Prince’s request for support is that I put the computer down and pull him onto my chest, something he’s only recently allowed me to do. With joy, I will happily oblige him. Thank you all for being here to witness Prince’s and my journey. <3 <3